Isn’t that the truth! I love to read even though sometimes it doesn’t seem like it. When my mind is feeling troubled there are three things that let me escape. One, my own dreamland, a world where my aspirations and hopes are my reality. Two, music. I can not deny the ability music has to erase things from my mind, and three, reading and writing so I can submerge myself into someone else’s life and escape from my own.
I read mostly non-fiction, I like facts and things that can be proven. Normally it is something horrible that has happened in our history or a biography about a person that something horrible happened to. It’s sinister and disgusting, but that’s what gutter my mind happens to be in. I did, however pick up the Harry Potter books after I forfeited my fight against the mainstream and watched the movies and I loved them! I truly felt that I was inside Hogwarts hanging with my homies, Harry, Ron and Hermione.
I have the worst reading habits, though Typically, I begin reading one non-fiction book, but as I get further into it I feel the need for reference material so I get another one. I believe at one point I was reading about Queen Elizabeth and I had 3 books going at the same time. Plus, if something or someone I don’t know jumps out at me, Google comes into play. So, I sit there and cross-reference all the material, statistics or pictures, from the internet and the books I have lying in front of me. One thing will lead into another. Say if the Queen Elizabeth book mentioned some party the Queen’s dad, King VI, threw in the gardens at Buckingham Palace, I would have to Google the party itself for any pictures which would then take me to the layout of the palace, then I would wonder what part was bombed in WW2, so I would start Googling to find out, but that would send me down the WW2 path, all of a sudden I’m reading about Hitler’s disgusting life. It takes me forever and it’s a headache. This will go on and on until I have had enough, then I can’t seem to pick up a book for the life of me for a while.
When it comes to writing, I have always had stories swirling around my head, but hesitated putting them down on paper. I finally convinced myself, after 31 years, that it doesn’t matter if other people like it or not, it is all about how I feel doing it. So, I have a Fiction book in the works, but unfortunately I write the same way I read…..
I have already written a Non-fiction book that is about my struggles through depression, self-mutilation and suicidal ideation. It was incredibly hard to go through the writing process because you pretty much have to relive everything. I took excerpts from my journals that I was writing in while going through it all. I can honestly say that I am proud of the fact that I wrote and let some of the hurt seep out.
The book is called “Back into the Sunshine” and it is available for a FREE (Come on, who doesn’t like free!) download at Amazon.com today through Sunday.
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MeNtAl Ramblings 